A Tribute to Michael Joseph Jackson (29th August 1958 – 25th June 2009)

Today I woke up with a terribly sad news on the telly - MJ passed away with cardiac arrest in LA. Hard to express the sadness in the air as we grew up watching him and listening to his music.

This is one of my favourites, One Day in Your Life. A classic, I would say... It was recorded in 1975 for his album, 'Forever, Michael'. It was such a hit that it was re-released in 1981 and became the 6th best-selling single of 1981 in the UK.

Here's the lyrics and enjoy the karaoke:

One day in your life
You'll remember a place
Someone touching your face
You'll come back and you'll look around you

One day in your life
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that you're always waiting
For the love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that you're always lonely
For the love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

Michael, may you rest in peace and may your music continues to inspire people!!!

For those who want the audio version, here it is:

Sedih yg teramat sangat...

Although I've tried and I've tried to refrain myself from writing about this in my blog, I just could not help it anymore. Tonight, I just feel so sad that I can't stop myself from crying... Someone dear to me is hurting my family and the consequences will be more when this someone 'crosses' the 'bridge'. Our relationships with each other may no longer be the same, my parents relationships with the rest of the other family members may be affected and things may not be the same and as good anymore - the consequences are just too big for everyone to bear.

Family is always first, no matter what - and at times, we learn it the hard way, I know I did. We may get surrogate family when we tie the knot but blood ties are not the same. There are times when life and death situation arises and only our blood ties can assist us - this has been proven scientifically. I, for one, was one of those who may have hurt my parents so much in my life and from the bottom of my heart, I regret and deeply sorry for hurting them.

I feel that the commandment, "Honour your father and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the Lord your God is giving you", was made to ensure that we live our long lives with every prayers that my parents dedicate to me. I, too, have learnt that praying for them helps me to get through my days better. When they are so sad like this, I just can't help myself from being so sad too. Maybe now I am much older and my eyes have 'opened up' to see their sacrifices since I was small till I graduated up to now.

I dont know what else to do with this special someone in my life. I watched how my mother lost a son and gained a daughter but I never thought that my mum's burden was more than what I saw then. I saw how she cried when her baby was 'crucifixed' due to multiple blood transfusions, I was only allowed to visit - I remember how my dad cried when he told us to be ready if we lose another sibling. I never thought that my parents would ever share with us on those most difficult moments of their lives and I never thought there are a lot more difficult situations that they have to go through those days. Mcm org cakap, seberat-berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yg memikul.

Ish kalau la boleh saya kasi pusing ni masa, saya mau kasi ubah segalanya supaya daddy and mummy tidak sakit hati begini. Kadang2 ada juga masa saya blame diri saya atas apa yg sedang berlaku sekarang. Afterall, saya yg sulung kan? Saya sepatutnya lebih tahu apa yg patut dijadikan contoh - especially now, I feel that I screwed up and crushed my parents' hearts for not taking care of myself and my family better. Saya rasa macam ni jantung saya skg ni mo jatuh sija - terlampau berat dan sakit saya rasa. Fikiran pun suda terlampau bercelaru.

Ada pula yg ahli keluarga lain tu bagi support sedangkan dorang nda tau betapa besar pengorbanan si daddy and mummy to bring us all up especially to this special someone - they never stopped worrying about this special someone. I wish that the others would stop thinking about themselves and start thinking about their parents and what would their parents feel if they do the same thing. Stop and think for a while before we support something and imagine what the elders are feeling. The elders who sacrificed so much to make us where we are today, the elders who, no matter what, tried their best to ensure that we have food to eat and clothes to wear. Orang tua yg kadang2 terpaksa berhutang sana-sini utk membiaya pelajaran kita - like I've said, kadang2 kita mungkin terlupa. My parents never brought these things to me before but now that they did, I couldn't help myself from feeling so-so sad for them. Growing up, I had a grandmother by my side, and that may be the reason why I didn't bond well with my parents. At these trying moments, I just wish that mama would be here by my side, consoling me with her soft voice and wiping my tears away with her hands. Ma, kalau la kau ada di sini, mesti kau pun sedih sama2 kami kan? I visited you the other day in Papar because I wanted to feel so close to you, I went to the house that we used to spend together masa saya cuti sekolah dulu2... I used to see you cry in your prayers when you prayed for this special someone and saya masa tu tidak paham kenapa... Now, I know why... mummy suda kasitau kami semua

My parents have asked my help to carry on something but I don't know whether I have the tenacity to carry such a responsibility... I pray that I will have the strength to carry it **sigh** I guess, like my dad, I would not be able to sleep well until this thing is resolved. I pray that the resolution will be soon for dad's and mum's sake.

To my readers, you may not know what is the issue here but please pray that this ordeal will come to pass and that my family will still be intact after that...

Just got back from KK (14th June 2009)

I had a blast with my family when I was in KK from 4th June - 14th June. The wedding was beautiful and the gathering was even better. Got to rekindle with so many family members and got a chance to get to know the new additions in our big family. It's been ages since we had such celebration in my father's kampung and I promise that I will attend each and every one of them in the future - I dont want to miss those amazing moments with them. I didn't get the chance to meet up with my friends though - but this trip was for the family so I hope my friends will understand...

The whole wedding and birthday celebrations were tiring but at the same time, fun!!! Great job to my parents and siblings who decorated the garden theme wedding and church with so many gorgeous ornaments and decorations - it was all worth the effort!!! Surely, this wedding will be remembered forever... Cousins Clarie and Deasy looked gorgeous as the bride and maid of honour. Andy, the groom, was teased by aunts too. All in all, it was a memorable family affair.

The day is Tuesday, 2nd June 2009...

Guess what, peeps... I've decided to take the day off today as I only managed to get my sleep at 7am just now. I was preparing the reports to be given to our directors before I go back for my cousin's wedding this Thurs.

Now, I am in a hair salon in Bangsar, called Shawn Cutters. Simple and nice setting. One thing cool is the fact that they provide wifi for people like me ;-) Yes, I brought along my laptop - as I am planning to get my hair coloured so I don't want to end up reading old mags or having a 'rewind' on Hollywood goss as I am a devotee to E! Entertainment Channel...

Ok now, for the trip to KK, I have 4th June - 14th June to celebrate cuzzie's wedding as well as party with the family!!! Yes, we are Sabahans afterall... Anyway, can't wait till both Clarie and Andy get married - I mean, finally... They have been trying to get married for some time now and thank God that it's finally here. Congrats to both of you!!! Will never missed the wedding for the world...

Another pleasant thing is I will be hosting a friend who is visiting Sabah for the 1st time - Rubes, believe me, you will feel at home there... I need to plan what to show her as she has only 3 days only this trip - yes, I do hope that there'll be another trip **wink**

Back to the wedding (yes, I am so excited for them!!! and I just love weddings), I have a simple pink dress for the church ceremony and just in case, I have another bolder pink for night one hehehe...

Gosh, now I have 2 guys doing colouring on my hair and since I've asked for my hair to have 'body', I am getting digital perm as well... My first digital perm hehehe... We'll see how it goes **fingers crossed**